Brush Off

Yesterday, I asked again to see our 4 year old daughter but the only comment my ex had was that she would be getting her things on October 27th. My ex promised never to do what she is doing to us right now. Not letting me be with our daughter. Now, I find myself waiting and praying to see my daughter.

I've become depressed and cry often. I'm use to driving her to school and taking care of her 2 days a week. We also spent time together on the weekends. Our favorite holiday is Halloween, which comes soon. I have her costume waiting and cannot share the day with her. My ex will make sure of that.

My daughter asked to see me when I was allowed to talk with her during our one and only phone call last week. I said "I wanted to see her too." How do you explain to a 4 year old that you are being prevented from seeing her? My daughter's reasoning for what is going on is that she ate chocolate and disappeared. The cruelty of the whole situation is enough to drive your batty.

Everything seems to have no meaning and I try to keep occupied but the pain of the whole thing creeps up on me.
I've gone from deep sadness to anger and back to sadness. I'm trying to be patient while the attorney looks to help us but patience is hard when you can feel that your child needs you and wants to be with you.

I'm good enough to have a baby with. I'm good enough to pay for the baby to be born and support the family. I'm good enough to raise the child for four years but now because my ex said so she is done letting me be her parent. Can someone explain this to me?

I would not wish this situation on anyone.

Be careful ladies she is going to want to date again...