The End of the March

Well it is approaching April and we headed to the Beach House last night. The sleepy New England beach town is still covered in snow and the yard I thought I would be able to get cleaned up is far from awake. The boys slept longer than usual as did I. I always sleep better up here with the ocean air less than 2 blocks away.

My mother’s health albeit abysmal, has stabilized and I am slowly returning to what I consider to be a normal life absent constant upset. I feel as though I have been doing a lot of cleaning up, both literally and figuratively. I let go of some useless relationships and made a decision that to pare down my life was in order. In furtherance of the events of last year, I guess I keep throwing things out so that they do not “Mold” in my life, relationships, fears, papers, old outdated notions and things that tie me back. I feel that it is a positive time in my life despite the constant letting go.

However, I also feel that it is a time of amalgamation. I was recently going through my strong box as I continued to consolidate adn protect things and get rid of things with little to no significance. In the box were lots of pieces of jewelry that I had accumulated over the years. Some of them were parts of my past, others a part of a loved person that had become an angel to watch over me. Through the years I had given some pieces of jewelry to “chosen” family as they had become part of my present (Besides, I am not the type to wear it and drag is was and always be out of the question for me…I would look like Mrs. Doubtfire).

I looked over all of it and realized that unbeknown to me I have all of our birth stones and the stones signifying destiny and eternal love a diamond. So I bagged up all the stuff and took it to a favorite jeweler that I had admired for years. I explained that I wanted to create a family ring out of my past and reminding me of my present and the hope I have for my future. OK, so I gave myself a birthday present. The rendering is awesome and is being crafted now so from the old, I create useless into useful, the gay version of recycling.

I took the day off yesterday to complete an entire page of errands that I have not been able to get to or I did not want to take the kids. For instance imagine sitting at the DMV with your kids…NO WAY! I need a drink by the time I get done there never mind if I had the kids with me. After a day there, having inspections done on both cars, sitting in waiting rooms I then went onto shopping. I went to get the kids new bikes and ended up getting myself one as well…so with 3 bikes a new bike rack and the mini-van, I trod into the realization that I had become what the Christian Right Wing fears most and that, I was about to lose my membership card to the purple mafia!

I also bought Ben a piano (an inexpensive one electronic one) as he is a piano prodigy and get Bryce signed up for T-Ball and got him the stuff he needed for that…and then resigned myself to having no weekends until July! Oh well, it is worth it, but I realized that they are growing up fast and yes perish the thought, I would like another baby! Someone save me from myself. Ok, the boys are hungry (so what else is new) and want to head out to breakfast, so , off we go into the last part of March and hopefully April will just bring flowers as I am so over this winter stuff!