seems like forever

its been forever since i have posted a blog. i guess cuz i havent had much to say. ive been reading all of your stories and how all of your journeys to parenthood are going and i suppose it makes me sad. my partner and i were trying for our second child with a private donor that we knew. well after we began the process things started to go not-so-well with the donor. and once that bad feeling over came us we decided to stop trying for now. it would be better to use an anonymous donor and just go through an IUI. sooo the process is halted. i guess it bothers me more cuz i was so anxious and so excited to finally be the one carrying. my partner carried our first born. and now i got my hopes up and was soo close to really doing it and BOOM!! now im not. we want another child so badly but finacially its a little tough right now to go through it medically. im sure the right time will come for us but right now just feels so right for me. but i guess its just wishful thinking.