"And They're Off"

Okay. . .so an update. . .

I got the phone call on Thursday afternoon that the doctor has decided that my 1.48 follicle and 3 lines uteral lining is ready. . .so to help it along I went to the pharmacy (which looked more like a business office with a receptionist and all) to pick up my hCG shot. My dear sweet "preggers buddy" injected me on Friday night at 8!

Saturday was a day of babysitting my God-twins (also the product of donor insemination) and cleaning house. . .am I nesting already??

Sunday morning at 8 I get in the car and drive to the Kirklin Clinic for my insemination. I get there right at 8 and find out the doctor was already ready for me. . .I go back disrobe lay on the table. . .we've got 21 million for the mobility count. . .I lay back. . .wait about 1/2 minute after he clicks the speculum in place. . .then he says. . "AND THEY'RE OFF!" Wow, really?

I lay on the table for a few moments and gather my thoughts. On the way out the nurse mentioned I should watch "If These Walls Could Talk 2" and try standing on my head like Sharon Stone. . .(was she coming out to me right there in the doctor's office??)

The first thought in my head as I walk to the car. . ."What have I done?" I mean I'm excited and what not, but am I really ready for a baby? A little bundle of joy? What happens if this doesn't work? What happens if I get pregnant but miscarry? ACK! The worry again sets in. . but I'm trying to be optimistic. . .and my preg buddy is all about texting me happy thoughts!!

So, I go home. . and on the drive home all I can think about is the song that Dory so perfectly sang in "Finding Nemo". . "Just keep swimming. . just keep swimming. . swimmng. . .swimming." I get hope. . lay down on the couch with pillows under my butt. . .just in case the little ones needed some assistance. . .and I pop in "Finding Nemo". . .Nemo by the way is the name of my egg now. . .fertilized or not. . .I'm sure (if I am pregnant) I will refer to the little one as Nemo. . perhaps for the duration of the kid's life. . .poor thing!

And now. . .the wait. . .I think I've felt little twinges in the right side of my uteral area (the right follicle was the one ready with the waiting egg). . .I have cramps today. . .and I'm not sure how I feel about them. . .

I'm suppose to wait until June 22nd to test. . .I doubt I will make it that long!!

Send me some babydust!!!