Where Have I Been All Your Life? Is the Question You Asked Me!

(Poetic Wedding Dedication to Earl Rock and Marcus Bayne -- written by Terry Angel Mason, Global Author)

Where Have I Been All Your Life? Is the Question You Asked Me!

I could not come into your life until you had finally realized that true love and sexual expression are two totally different things.

I could not come into your life until you were anchored in wisdom and in truth and could truly discern what true love is.

I could not come into your life or be the fulfillment of your dreams until the seductions of life had lost their appeal and the realization of what true relationship is had exploded in your mind.

I could not come into your life until you were willing to walk miles if you had to in your bare feet to find me, sacrifice the most expensive thing you own because now you realized that no material thing alone will ever fulfill you without love being present in your life.

I could not come until you were absolutely sure who you were and knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that when God made you, you were not a mistake or an accident and that there is no flaw in any of His Creations because, “God doeth all things well.”

It is true, I longed for your love all my life and prayed for you fervently more times than you could ever know, bombarding heaven with my request so many times until it is surprising that the Angels did not put me out of God’s throne room!

It wasn’t that He was unwilling to answer or give me the true desire of my heart (and that was someone like you) but I too had to evolve to a place of readiness before my gift could manifest -- before you could walk into my life.

There were seemingly endless days that I thought I would not last because I needed you so and you were nowhere to be found; so I allowed myself to be only partially fulfilled by others with selfish motives because I longed for the touch of a human hand and the need for intimacy was so strong.

There are so many, “I’m sorry God for not listening, not waiting, not being still and running ahead because of my impatience,” I want to say to Him!

When I fell at his feet out of guilt and condemnation for my stupid mistakes and unwillingness to wait, He lifted me and beside Him you were standing.

When I saw you, I thought “Who is this? Why is he standing there? And then you spoke (while He said nothing, only with a smile of approval on His face) and the sound of your voice resonated in my spirit like a melody heard years ago, a song I was certain I had sung before, but not really.

When I thought about what I was hearing I realized that I had heard the melody years ago in a dream as a child and every since then I have searched the whole world over, year after year trying to find the written music but never could, only generic versions.

Now the melody rings in my ear as a confirmation to my heart and I am afraid that perhaps I have made too many mistakes, wondered too far away from the dream, am no longer worthy to receive it though I desire it so!

The Lord would say to me “All are worthy!” But though He has forgiven me, my heart still weeps because now I am ready. My mind is mature, but I must know that the one who loves me back truly loves me because perfect love and only perfect love can cast out fear.

I need to know that the person in whose eyes I peer into will see that inside of this resilient man is a childlike spirit, beautiful and untainted by life who still dreams, still is fascinated with the beauty of creation, is in love with the gentle Savior, ambitious, creative, yet admittedly a little weary of life!

Now time is fleeing from me, and fleeing from you (even though you may not be aware) like an hour glass now empty, not because we have done anything wrong, but because God has a divine plan for all of humanity that must unfold in order to restore His creation to its former state of perfection.

No more time for you or I to waste searching, hoping dreaming, looking, waiting…

We must take hold of the dream, realize that there is a price to pay for owning it, and never forsake it when we don’t agree because iron sharpens iron. Our imperfections might cause us to clash at times, but if we run away from each other, we will never come to understand that those same imperfections are invested with a supernatural power to perfect our love!

By Terry Angel Mason, Global Author
Excerpt from my new book: THEY SAY THAT I AM BROKEN
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THEY SAY THAT I AM BROKEN by Terry Angel Mason
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About Mason's New Literary Masterpiece - THEY SAY THAT I AM BROKEN

They Say That I Am Broken is a gripping page-turner that deals with a plethora of issues affecting Same-Gender-Loving community, including homophobia in the Black Church, HIV, DADT (Don't Ask Don't Tell), gay marriage, homeless gay children, and more. The book also features captivating articles about CNN anchor and author Don Lemon, The Los Angeles Lakers’ superstar Kobe Bryant, and much more. They Say That I Am Broken is poised to gain worldwide recognition as it affirms God’s love for all people, and eloquently dissects race, religion and homosexuality through empowering essays, poems and stories. Angel is available for an exclusive interview for your publication. Please review the e-book and contact me if to arrange an interview or a review for the publication.

RELEASE DATE: SUMMER 2012 (eBook now Available)

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Wait and You'll Experience God's Best

...God... will fulfill his purpose for [you]. Psalm 57:2

If you've been praying for God to send you the right partner, or for a better job, or to change the heart of a rebelliouschild, remember, whether He changes the situation or changes you, He 'will fulfill his purpose for [you].' God sees the big picture, and He loves you so much that He works out 'all things for good in your life' (Romans 8:28). One author writes: 'It's hard to make sense of life's challenges when you're in the middle...you're too tired, your perspective's limited...you don't have the strength or vision to do this on your own...'Trust the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding' (Proverbs 3:5 GWT) means letting go of floundering attempts to manipulate people, circumstances or timing...and returning the reins to the One who knows the way. Think about it; if you knew what you were doing, would you be in this mess? We talk about waiting on God. But He also waits on us...until we're ready to receive...until we appreciate what we're asking for...until we've made sufficient preparations in our heart...until we're free from resentment and discontent...until our maturity level is appropriate and our understanding elevated...Sometimes He waits until we think He's forgotten us just to test and grow our faith...Remember, '...With the Lord a day is like a thousand years...' (2 Peter 3:8 NIV). Eternity is His backdrop...and He can solve a problem in a minute, or in two generations.' Isaiah says, 'The Lord longs to be gracious to you...Blessed are all who wait for him!' (Isaiah 30:18 NIV). Wait! Don't get ahead of God and you'll experience His best.