Finding a Doctor

Chart your period, pee on ovulation sticks, scour profiles until your eyes burn, take folic acid, buy extra short-term disability insurance - all with a knot in my stomach of excitement and worry....and we are just getting started. I am now onto the most dreaded step for me - finding a doctor to perform the IUI. This prospect is scaring me to death. I am completely "out", but every time I try to pick up the phone to call local doctors, my heart beats into my throat and I hang up before someone can answer. I'm acting like a child! I know the questions that I need to ask, and I'm sure most of the offices are asked similar questions all of the time, but I feel so vunerable. I feel like I am exposing my inner self to this complete stranger over the phone. Silly, I know. I've never been comfortable with doctors, even my own. Having to call random ob-gyn offices in the area to ask them whether they will (basically) "unfreeze donor sperm and insert it into my uterus while I hold my lesbian partner's hand and oh, yeah, how much will that cost" is giving me extra doctor-anxiety. Luckily, I am seeing my own family doctor in a few weeks to make sure I am cleared for take-off in August, and I am hoping she would be willing to learn how to do the IUI herself and help me avoid this awkward moment. She's going to be my doctor during the pregnancy, and the baby's pediatrician once it arrives, so I figure she might as well be the one that gets me pregnant. Her own little personal pregnancy trifecta.