3rd and final attempt for this cycle 0-5 scary factor

Still hit every red light on the way home, weird that it takes just about 25 minutes to get to our wonderful friend and donors home, yet 45 to get home.
Jinxed, that's all.
You would think the traffic would be worse around rush hour than shortly there after. I think everyone drives so fast during rush hour just to get home, but at 7:30 they go much slower to and from gymnastics, soccer, dance.
When we finally get home and we just did it, right away.
No sweet talkin shower time, just got it done and over with. Maybe we should have taken it more seriously than that, I dont know? We were both too tired for all the semantics.
But that was our final try for this cycle. I dont keep up with the days, numbers and her cycle stuff, but I do remember her saying we can use a pregnancy test on the 12th. That seems soooo soon, doest in? Anyhow, she was adamant about doing it on the 12th. So, that gives us 9 days to wait and see.
How does everyone react to the wait and see game?
How does everyone else deal with the entire thing?
I wouldn't know because I haven't found a beating pulse going thru the same thing, "everyone else" is just a few blogs, empty forums with questions left unanswered, tips and the do's and dont's. By the same thing I mean insemination, not to discredit any other methods.
Isn't there any other discussion going on? Anywhere?
I told my Dolly yesterday that I was blogging this.
Really thought she wouldn't approve, as if this is OUR private life, our challenge, not to be shared with anyone as of yet.
But surprisingly she didn't mind.
She seemed as if it was okay to share OUR story, maybe that's because she, like myself, cannot find very many other people out there going thru self insemination, or even IUI Dr guided, any form of insemination at all.
Maybe she approves because we are being vocal where few are?
Maybe its because she hasn't read this yet? :)
She even said she goes to this website like everyday. I guess she didn't notice the blog and our photograph from our last Ocala camping trip. I understand why she comes to this website everyday, at least there is something going on here, peoples discussions, reactions, not souly on this topic but there are others this I know, but it still seems so cold, as this, our story, may seem to you, cold and without a pulse.
I assure you we are real live people with the same questions and concerns you have. Without anyone but each other to ask. I guess I write this in hopes someone will answer, question, or just plain old respond with an optimistic hello, yes, we are all here too.
Maybe they just listen, or dont ask, maybe there doll faced women dont want to share, hay maybe they have all the answers?
If that's the case get to talking, because my first 2 posts on the topic of insemination in my first two days already have a number of reads.........So someone is listening........and I thank you.