We were inseminated for the fourth round this past weekend and are now in the blissful two week waiting period. Why blissful? No doctor appointments! Woo Hoo! I’m not the type of person to ever go to the doctor so this has been a baptism by fire.
I’ve gotten to the point where I’m pretty good about being relaxed for the two weeks, not sitting on the edge of my chair (except for in occasional moments of weakness). The first round was definitely the hardest to wait because we were so sure the results were going to come back positive. Now I’ve faced reality and realize that there’s a very good chance that all I’m going to find out at the end of the two weeks is that I need to start the next series of doctor visits, ordering sperm, getting out the test sticks, etc. That makes it a whole lot easier to live blissfully in the moment of not having to do a thing…well, except for take progesterone and get moody. Ahh well, it can’t be perfect but it’s pretty close.
This might sound like we’re not thinking positively anymore, that’s not the case at all. I’ve simply added some reality in there to keep myself balanced and from falling off the edge when I get bad news is all. I’m a person of high highs and low lows and know that so I do what I can in situations like this to keep myself a little more emotionally level. So far so good.